In my real life I am an average 28 year old. I am married and have two young boys, a husband and a dog. I struggle with hanging up the laundry after it is done and hate cleaning house. Sometimes I do like cleaning if in the right mood but usually only really really clean if someone is coming over. I work from home in my bedroom. Some of my friends think working out of my bedroom is crazy but it really is the only place I can get away from the regular chaos of my family and house. I am about 10-15 pounds overweight and have been fighting acne and ADHD since I was a teen. My roots are currently showing and I try not to look at them for the fear that I will find a grey hair.
On the other hand, I am a confident, hard working successful woman. I enjoy playing roller derby and am actually getting pretty damn good. I have big, pretty RED hair and am actually sexy when all dressed up. I dress up for Roller Derby and my role as a Passion Party consultant. I have tons of friends and a few best friends. I am social and talk to anyone and everyone. One would say that I never meet a stranger.
The problem is that these two world or hands, don't really fit together all that well. Here are a couple examples. First and probably the biggest and largest conflict is being conceived as attractive. Or I should say the perception of myself being conceived as attractive. My husband does not tell me I am hot, cute or sexy. I also do not really even need him to say so more just act so. Yet, when I am out and about (in my hot world aka Texas) men find me hot and are coming on to my left and right. The second conflict is the one of a confident woman (Texas) vs the discovering who I am still and am self conscious (Angela). I prefer Texas.
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